For those who care this can mean something, for those who don't it's just another journal...
so i'm just writting for those who care... who i imagine to be 2 or 3...

As you might have noticed, i haven't uploaded any deviation for a long time...
i've barely visited DA for a long time...
Last months have been terrible, i've been stabbed, i've been left for those i loved, i've had lots of work to do for school...

Starting for the first, when i mean i've been stabbed, i was really stabbed...
1 knife, 1 leg, 1 fucking gipsy, 100€ that i didn't had, 4 nasty holes, 3 horrible nights at the hospital, 1 painful month of recovery and 1000€ of hospital bills!
wtf are they thinking? one thousand fucking euros! and physiotherapy isn't even included....
i have no fucking idea how my parents are going to pay that...
I live in such a shitty country that someone is stabbed and he's got to pay it himself...
if i had said, "oh.. that was an accident... i felt over the kitchen knife... 4 times..." it would be subsidized by the state...
and since i don't know who as done this, i have no one to point at the court, no one to sue, no one to pay...

This left me so anger for so long... mad with me, mad with that mudafucker gipsy, mad with the world...
every night i would stay awake thinking about what i could have done differently...
How could i have avoided this...

Time later when i was finally getting better with myself, my girlfriend left me...
all of me was taken again... lost the will to do anything...
she claimed the attention i din't gave.. the love that i dind't showed... and it's all true..
she's completly right... i've always had the hability to push away the ones that care for me or love me...
not because i don't love them back... but because i don't show it...
i feel like i am a damn voodoo doll full needles, and as someone tries to get closer to me the needles stick further in and i need to back away...

No need to talk about school work.. because everyone knows how school works suck...

But i've finally decided to get back to DA, i miss watching great art... i miss making art, or at least trying...
i need to get past trough all this...
so, hello again everyone....